Editing My News Diet

SORRY I missed blogging last week.  My laptop display died. I had to spend many hours at the Genius Bar and over three hours migrating my life from my external backup drive to the NEW MacAir.  It was either $749 to get a new display OR $999 for new laptop.

Editing My News Diet

The moment that pushed me over the edge was the headline involving Trump and Venezuela — the kind of headline that makes you blink, reread it, and then stare into the middle distance wondering how this is now part of the global conversation again. I wasn’t confused because it was complicated. I was confused because it existed at all.

That’s when I noticed my shoulders were somewhere near my ears. Again.

For years, I told myself that staying on top of the news was a responsibility. Being informed meant being engaged. Being engaged meant reading everything, all the time, preferably with my cold brew coffee.  I skim the NYT, The Oregonian, WSJ, The Economist and a local weekly.

But lately, staying “informed” has felt less like learning and more like being repeatedly splashed with cold water for no discernible reason. Every headline urgent. Every development framed as unprecedented. Every story demanding my immediate emotional response.

And yet … nothing in my actual life had changed.  I wasn’t gaining clarity. I was collecting agitation.

That Trump-Venezuela headline didn’t make me smarter. It didn’t help me understand the world better. It just irritated me.  My news diet wasn’t nourishing me. It was just loud.

Editing isn’t opting out. It’s curating.  I still care about the world. I still read. I still pay attention. I’ve just stopped believing that constant exposure equals civic virtue. I don’t need to be alerted to every development in real time to remain a thoughtful, engaged adult.

So I made a small but meaningful shift. I started choosing sources that focus on what’s working, what’s improving, and how people are solving problems without turning everything into a five-alarm fire. Stories that remind me that kindness, ingenuity, and quiet progress still exist — even if they don’t scream for attention.

It turns out there’s plenty of good happening that doesn’t require outrage to be interesting.  Positive News.  The Daily Good.  I unsubscribed to all hourly/daily new headline news.

Here’s what I hope happens.  Nothing dramatic. No digital detox announcement. No cleanse. Just a few intentional choices.

Maybe:

• My mornings will be calmer.
• My shoulders drop faster.
• I’m less reactive in conversation.
• I have more patience for actual humans in front of me.
• My cold brew remains COLD

I won’t become less informed. I will become less rattled.

And maybe I will notice things again. Small things. Ordinary things. The kind of things that actually make up a real life.

Aging Awkwardly, as it turns out, isn’t about disengaging. It’s about refining.

We edit our calendars.
We edit our relationships.
We edit our closets.

Editing what I allow into my head feels like the natural response …for me.

MERRY CHRISTMAS

Just five more days until Christmas. (I’m writing this on Saturday, with fingers crossed and cookies cooling.)

It has been a month. Our weather has delivered three-inch downpours more than once, with relentless rain and wind in between. Three “atmospheric rivers” have swelled rivers and lakes beyond their banks, forcing evacuations and triggering landslides on major roadways. Mt. Hood—unthinkably—has no snow.

I had an eye checkup this week following laser surgery to clear some post-cataract haziness from a few years ago. The weather was wicked enough that I nearly canceled. By the time I reached the door, I was soaked through, my umbrella having lost a fierce battle with the wind. Hip waders would have been the correct footwear for crossing the parking lot. HORRIBLE. I’d planned to stop for deli food on the way home, but there was no universe in which I was going back out. (Dinner was mac and cheese. Comfort food counts.)

We are fortunate that our condo sits uphill from the Willamette River, which is cresting at record levels. The water is so high—and carrying so much debris—that the beloved Christmas Ship cruise has been canceled for the first time in 70 years. To add insult to injury, two thousand gallons of raw sewage spilled into the river yesterday. Ho ho no.

This morning I woke to darkness—no power in my room or the boys’ room next door. Thankfully, it was just a flipped fuse, and light, heat, and internet were quickly restored. Meanwhile, the family is vacationing near Mt. Hood (a Christmas gift), and they’ve been without power since arriving Friday night. Holiday adventure, Oregon-style.

And yet… Christmas is still on its way.

I’ve made Chex Mix and sugar cookies, with hopes of squeezing in another variety or two before they return on Christmas Eve. Wrapping must begin soon so I can safely navigate my bedroom without risking a holiday injury. And the kidults pulled off a small miracle: they convinced the teens to take a photo with Santa. Same Santa as last year—and wow, does that man know how to coax a great pose out of the typically non-smiling set.

Despite the rain, the wind, the outages, and the general sogginess of it all, the spirit persists. Cookies are baked. Gifts are coming together. Christmas, as it always does, finds a way.

MEAN GIRLS

 Mean Girls Don’t Age Out — They Just Get Louder

This past week reminded me that Mean Girls don’t age out — they just get better lighting and better sound reinforcement.

I had a few uncomfortable run-ins that felt oddly intimidating. It made me think about how kids must feel when they’re targeted, and how quickly confidence can wobble when someone decides to flex power instead of kindness.

And then — just as quickly — the week righted itself.

By Friday, things were back where they belong. Mr. 11 brought home a flower from science class that didn’t make it into the dissection tray. I cooked a dinner that filled the house with good smells and better energy. I finished my holiday shopping (mostly local), sent my sister flowers for no reason at all, and remembered exactly who I am.

Earlier in the week, I was expected to clean up someone else’s work for a meeting I hadn’t even attended. When I declined — politely and repeatedly — the situation escalated. It didn’t go the way the instigator hoped. At the next Council meeting, when the spotlight turned to her to give her report, there was a long, quiet pause. Others spoke up. Clarity arrived. The moment grew… awkward. For her.

It passed.

Another meeting followed a similar pattern: pressure to name names rather than focus on improving process. I chose not to. Boundaries held. Silence, too, can be a decision.

Here’s the thing I keep relearning:

• I don’t need to win.
• I don’t need to explain myself endlessly.
• I don’t need to match negative energy.

• I can write it out (and not send).
• I can cook it out.
• I can walk away intact.

Mean Girls don’t win.

The win is walking away with your joy intact — and maybe a flower on the nightstand and family dinner from the kitchen.

Countdown Chaos: My Life in 24 Tiny Boxes (Times Two)

The holidays have a sneaky way of pouncing on me like a cat on a laser pointer — one minute it’s Halloween, and the next thing I know I’m knee-deep in 24 tiny boxes, microscopic toys, sugar-free treats, and increasingly creative ways to surprise two very opinionated grandsons. Last week’s blog post didn’t happen because I spent over two hours wrapping minuscule trinkets and stuffing bite-sized treasures into Advent/Countdown calendars — not once, but twice — all while wondering why on earth I didn’t start this project sometime back in July.

Kate adored Advent calendars growing up. Back then the big thrill was getting to eat a little piece of candy before breakfast — the height of childhood rebellion. The calendars themselves were simple: flimsy cardboard with tiny perforated flaps. But then the grandsons arrived, and suddenly my job description expanded: I was no longer just “Gramma,” I had become CCO (Chief Creative Officer of December).

In my Maui years, I mailed the boys letters with photos of me and Poppa (so they knew who was writing), and their parents would read my notes aloud. Braeden’s first Advent calendar theme? Fisher-Price Little People. Then came Paw Patrol, Disney, and LEGO — each year a new chapter in my self-appointed mission to delight small humans one tiny surprise at a time. When Deacon arrived, the workload doubled. And honestly, at this point I should probably start calling them “Countdown Calendars,” because I’m not convinced either boy knows what “Advent” means.

This year I repurposed a heavy-duty See’s Candy box with perfectly sized compartments. I didn’t want to rely on candy — one grandson is cutting back on sugar — so I got creative. The boys love $2 bills, so I called my bank and ordered fifty of them. (Yes, the teller paused.) I added temporary tattoos with positive little messages, friendship bracelets in “manly” colors, flavored floss (Gramma knows the dentist), chapstick, Tic Tacs, gum, and of course a bit of candy because tradition still matters.

Of course, holiday magic is never without complications. Thanks to Braeden’s thriving online resale empire — where he sells used clothes, deposits the money into my account, and then cashes himself out at the Bank of Grandmother — several of my neatly stacked $2 bills had mysteriously vanished. So this year some days include a $5, a $10, and one early golden-ticket day with a $20 so the boys can “go shopping like real men.”

And because kids shouldn’t have all the fun, I found adult countdown calendars too. Kate gets a daily scented votive with an inspirational message. Jesse is unwrapping a beard-care extravaganza that includes oils, crème, and a tiny comb that looks like it belongs in a dollhouse.

The truth is, all this chaos is worth it. These little rituals make December sparkle — not because of what’s inside each box, but because of the joy of making someone smile each morning.

What about you? Do you have any holiday traditions, big or small, sweet or slightly ridiculous, that mark the season for you?

P.S.  I asked AI Max to use my FB photo but have me holding a glass of wine after all my teeny tiny box stuffing.

I think he added a bit of lipstick!  And smoothed that wild hair. How did he change the way my face is pointing?????

SORRY!

I forgot today was Saturday!  I spent most of the day buying little things to put in the boys' Advent Calendars.  Tomorrow I'm seeing a matinee of Miracle on 34th Street then dinner after.

I'll be back! 

A Feast for One: How Thanksgiving Found Me Again

 What is your Thanksgiving tradition?

Thanksgiving has worn many faces in my life—crowded kitchens, 22-pound turkeys greeting the dawn, aunties in aprons, cross-country flights gone wrong, and now a quiet table set for one. What hasn’t changed is that tug of nostalgia as the house fills with the familiar scents of butter, broth, and something slowly roasting. My celebration today looks nothing like the chaotic family feasts of my childhood, but in its own way, it’s become just as meaningful… maybe even more so.

My Mom hosted Thanksgiving for our family of eight plus two spinster aunts. Those were the days when you had to get up at 5:00 a.m. to put the 22-pound turkey in the oven. But really, the preparations started days earlier. The turkey was thawing in the fridge at least four days ahead of time. Luckily we had a second fridge out in Dad’s shop, which freed up the kitchen fridge for the butter, eggs, celery, and real cream for whipping. I have such vivid memories of those behind-the-scenes rhythms.

I took over hosting when I was 23, newly married, living in the duplex we owned (the other side rented out to pay the mortgage). Fortunately, everyone brought a side dish, making it much easier than Mom’s solo marathon. That tradition only lasted a few years before we moved to California after the great Ohio blizzard.

In the Bay Area, we created a new tradition: inviting friends and neighbors without nearby family to a Thanksgiving potluck. We tried making the trip back to Columbus our first year in California, but it was a disaster of delays, missed connections, and luggage frozen on the tarmac for days. After that, we stayed put and made our own celebrations.

Fast forward to intergenerational JB in Lake Oswego. These days the kidults and grands go to Jesse’s side of the family for holidays and birthdays. I no longer join them—the drinking gets out of hand, tempers flare, and frankly, my blood pressure prefers peace. So now I get to cook all MY favorites, light a candle, and settle in with a BBC detective drama. Honestly… bliss.

Dressing has always been my favorite dish. I use a pared-down Pioneer Woman recipe with three kinds of bread (one being cornbread), and it’s a once-a-year treat I should probably allow myself more often. And yes—I make homemade gravy. This year, instead of Costco’s massive pumpkin pie, I’m making a small one from One Dish Kitchen, just a few perfect servings for one. I’m also trying her green bean casserole for one.

And the main event this year? Duck confit. I’ve never had it, but one of our fancy grocery stores carries fresh-frozen confit. Thaw, sear, serve. It’s already fully cooked, but the butcher told me that searing takes it from delicious to ooo-la-la.

These days my Thanksgiving table may be smaller, quieter, and blissfully drama-free, but it’s also filled with gratitude—the simple kind that comes from honoring old memories while creating new, gentler ones. Whether you’re feeding a crowd, traveling across states, or enjoying a peaceful feast for one, I hope your holiday brings exactly what you need… even if that’s just good food, a warm candle, and a detective solving a case in the background.

COOKING FOR ONE in a household of five

I enjoy eating. And I enjoy cooking. I wouldn’t want to do it every day—let’s not get crazy—but lately Jesse finally acquiesced and handed me the Tuesday dinner baton. (It helped that he was coaching Deacon’s soccer team and didn’t walk in the door until well after 6:30. Desperation breeds delegation.)

My Tuesday specialty quickly became soup because everyone seemed to eat at different times anyway. My chicken noodle soup is nothing fancy, just honest comfort food. I learned long ago to serve the cooked noodles—or rice—on the side so they don’t bloat into sad broth-sponges. One grandson likes mostly broth, the other prefers to shovel in mostly noodles, and the rest of us land somewhere in between. So it was a Tuesday night win-win-win-win.

Then I tried homemade marinara with a small pasta buffet: spaghetti? penne? both? They even liked gnocchi, which made me feel like Giada for at least five minutes. Some nights I put out a little salad smorgasbord — lettuce, cukes, carrots, celery, olives, nuts, cheese, protein — giving everyone the illusion of choice. Works like a charm.

But today’s topic isn’t about feeding a family of five.  It’s those wonderful, rare evenings when I want to cook just for me.

Years ago I stumbled onto a website called One Dish Kitchen. It’s run by a husband/wife team, and I swear her email newsletters could talk me into cooking things I didn’t even know I wanted. Her introductions are charming and her tips for using up leftover ingredients are pure gold. She’s on Facebook, Instagram, and—if I could subscribe hourly, I probably would.

Here’s my guilty pleasure: every so often I send my family on little overnight (or two or three) road trips. Go, be free! Drive somewhere! Eat snacks! And once the house is blissfully quiet, I suddenly have the energy to do a project. (Never again oven-cleaning. That was traumatic. This time maybe the pantry.)

But here’s the key: when I get into project mode, I don’t want to stop and cook. So I’ve been slowly creating a tiny stash of single-serve casseroles. Years ago I bought myself a cute 5”×5” casserole dish from One Dish Kitchen—white, simple, and apparently invisible, because whenever someone empties the dishwasher, it disappears into the Bermuda Triangle of our overcrowded cabinets.

So yesterday I treated myself.  I ordered a three-piece set in bright, unapologetic RED:

• a 5” square baking dish,
• a 10-ounce ramekin,
• and a 5”×7” casserole dish (technically for one… or two… or a very hungry me).

I'm hoping the RED will ensure these items get back to the Grandma kitchen shelf  I keep a few kitchen items on the shelves in my room.  So I can easily find them again.  The citrus juicer.  The bottle opener.  Large serving platters.  A soup tureen.

And last but not least—my secret weapon—I always keep a few ready-to-eat single servings of protein in the freezer. On those nights when the mood strikes, I just grab one, defrost it, warm it up, toss it onto a giant salad, and pat myself on the back for being both practical and deliciously self-sufficient.

Sometimes cooking for one feels like a little love note to myself.

And honestly? I’m starting to think I deserve more of those.